Changing Destinies Today

I've written a lengthy devotional on changing my life. 

I've written much. Some 3 pages worth of reflection. 

And now I go to doing things. 

I am going to make it. 

I just know something had clicked today. 

And it is God's sign.

Why create a blog after seven years?

Why?

I am not sure. 

I just know I am not well if I can't find time to write. 

Perhaps I am unwell really. 

Perhaps I am scared of the world. 

Perhaps I am jaded. 

Perhaps I am just in pain. 

Perhaps I am really the villain that wishes ill in my own life. 

Or maybe I needed to go to the shrink but find it too troublesome. 

It doesn't sound good - seeking help in my part of the world. 

The stigma itself can send me to bedlam. 

I don't even know what content to write. 

I guess I just miss the way words flow freely inside my mind. 

Unconstrained. Uncensored. Unbothered. 

I don't even know if I can sustain this. 

All I know is...

I just want to write, and be myself. 

I just hope this helps. 

At least to me.

Why the blog title dumpsite?

Because there is nothing really helpful to the world here.

I just need to dump the excesses of my thoughts,

that cannot change the world,

that cannot change anybody, except me I guess.

Nothing in here is worth reading even.

This is just a dumpsite. 

The stench. The chaos.

Of all ideas and thoughts I needed to let go. 

These are all here.